The Struggle: Being Redeemed & Still Broken

*I wrote this recently in the midst of a real struggle in my own life. This is the final post in a series entitled “Struggling”. My prayer is that you would be encouraged by my honesty and that God would use this series to help you in the midst of your own struggle, whatever that may be. To start with the first post in this series, click here. *


I am caught in a dilemma. A dilemma where I hear one thing, yet see another. A predicament in which I read truth, but it feels as if truth lies to me. I contradict my truth each day as I happen upon life. And then, I am left wondering what truth is.

God’s Word is STILL truth. But, sometimes it feels distant, not because it is un-relatable, but because those truths and those promises in their fullness have not yet come to be.

I know God’s glory, His plan, His redemption- it is there, but as I reach out for more I cannot grasp it with my feeble fingers.

Finding the balance, I think that’s where I am. I’m finding the balance of being redeemed and still being so broken.

I’m finding the balance of being free, and still at times being held captive.

I’m finding the balance of being righteous, but still so tainted.

The balance of being God’s child, and still walking around as this imperfect human.

The balance of choosing victory, but still struggling.

I believe His truth. I cling to His promises. Still I must understand I will not fully see them come to be until I reach the other side of eternity.

My body will still be broken, to some extent, but I HOPE for the future when it is whole.

My heart will still fail me, I will sin, I will screw up, but I HOPE for the day when sin no longer plagues my heart.

My mind will struggle, I will have hardship, heartbreak, frustrations, but I HOPE for the day when there are no more sorrows, no more struggles.

Eternity is going to be great! So, as I strive, and I try to overcome my struggles; I still cling to His truth. But, more than anything I cling to this hope, the hope of a future glory that is awaiting me through Him.

Colossians 1:27 “For God wanted them to know that the riches and glory of Christ are for you Gentiles, too. And this is the secret: Christ lives in you, the hope of glory.”


One thought on “The Struggle: Being Redeemed & Still Broken

  1. Hi. I just love the way you have managed to so eloquently write about your struggles. Reading your story has helped me to understand mine that much more. Thank you for the opportunity to walk with you.


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