Follow, it means to go after someone or something; making a choice to follow closely behind; choosing to take the same route or direction as another.
As I thought about my 2015, a lot of different goals and dreams, hopes and resolutions twirled around melting together in my finite mind.
What do I want for this year? Who do I want to be? What goals do I want to set?
I could set goals about my health. I could vow to be more organized as I do each year. I could plan for success in my writing journey. I could write down each step I must take to improve in so many different areas of my life. The options are limitless.
BUT, the truth is I DON’T KNOW. I really don’t. I don’t know for sure WHAT I want. I don’t know for sure WHERE I want to be.
You see, at the beginning of last year, I had a plan and I made goals and steps of how to get where I knew I was going. BUT, I never got there. In fact, as I sought after the Lord, I found that His plan was much different than my own. After many days of turmoil within my heart, I made the choice to release my dreams, my plans, and my goals into the hands of my Heavenly Father.
And, I’m so glad I did! In doing so, the Lord gave me a new sense of Freedom and he birthed within my heart new dreams.
But, my vision is still clouded and the timing unclear.
Do I move or do I stay still before my Maker?
Do I work in wanting or do I wait?
SO, as I prayed and thought about what my one word for this year would be, my heart heard the word “follow”.
Almost as if my Heavenly Father was gently whispering in my ear, “Just FOLLOW me. It is that simple.”
The truth is, my list of goals, the plans that I make, the hopes that I have for this year, none of them matter if I am not following after my Savior.
My feet planted firmly, one step behind His at all times.
AND so, though I do not know where I am going, though my mind cannot comprehend fully the plans He has for me, I will choose to follow. I will choose to seek Him each day so that I may know where He is leading. I will choose to come before Him minute by minute to lean on His direction.
If it means once more that I must release my pre-conceived dreams to Him, I will follow.
If it means that I gain little in the eyes of the world, still I will follow.
If it means I must give up the things that I so tightly cling to, I will follow.
Or if it means BIG, amazing, better than I could have imagined things, I will follow.
John 10:27 “My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me.”