The day was a busy one. I rushed in the door after being gone running errands, buying groceries, driving to doctors’ appointments. Quickly I unloaded only what was necessary. I laid down my babies, praying that their eyes would stay shut and a nap would take its place in their afternoon. And it did.
Now what? I looked at the clock. As the seconds ticked by I knew my time was short. My time between this activity and the one that was soon ahead would hurriedly close in, so I had to act fast.
The house was a mess, but today that would have to wait. The laundry, as always, was beginning to catch me and stacks of messy clothes scattering themselves where they didn’t really belong, but that too could wait.
I had made a commitment for this month. A commitment to sit down and write EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. And, it wasn’t just a commitment to myself, but a commitment to others as well. “I must be a woman of my word and follow through” I thought out loud.
So, there I found myself, sitting in front of my computer, with a bright white empty document staring right back at me. The words would begin to make their mark upon the page, that is until the backspace button over ruled and one again left the page empty.
Ughhhh. My brain was not working. What was I going to write about today?
Over and over again I tried to rush my brain into thought, keeping track of the time that was wasting away as I sat there blankly. Tick tock. Tick tock. Tick tock. A reminder that I better hurry up and get something fantastically amazing typed upon that page before it was too late.
“God, please give me the words,” I whispered as I closed my eyes, “what is it that you want me to write today?”
And then, almost as if someone audibly spoke the words, I had a thought come to mind.
“Sarah, you’re asking for God’s help, but you haven’t even opened His word today. You haven’t taken the time to seek Him today. You haven’t opened your ears to hear what He might say.”
In that moment, I remembered that I am nothing without Him. My words are nothing, if they aren’t from Him.
In the rush of my day’s activities I had thrown off my schedule and bypassed the time that I normally would have spent praying, and listening, and reading God’s Word.
I was in too big of a hurry to spend time with my Lord today. Can you relate?!
But in giving up that time, I also lost my inspiration. I lost my voice. I lost the reason that I write in the first place.
I write because He teaches me the lessons, He speaks to me through His word, He guides my fingers as they slide across the keyboard and words fly upon that blank document, making it something.
If I bypass Him, if I try to do anything without Him, I fail.
Because it is in Him that I am made whole to begin with. It is in Him that I have the power and the strength to write the words upon the page.
Don’t try to do your life without Him, my friend.
If you do, you will be missing out on what life is really intended to be.
Stop today. Be still. Open His Word. And spend some time with the Savior.
Psalm 16:2 “I say to the LORD, “You are my Lord; apart from you I have no good thing.”