Some days in this journey of motherhood I wonder why? Why should I keep trying? Keep trying to do better, to be better?
Why should I continue on this journey of striving each day to fulfill the roles God has placed in front of me?
I strive daily to seek the Lord, to grow closer to Him, to surrender my future to His hands.
I strive each day to love my husband, to choose his needs above my own.
I strive to be the mom I should be, to show my babies the attention they desire, to kiss their booboos, and meet their needs, and teach them lessons about life and God.
I strive to keep my home in order, to keep the never ending pile of laundry going, to keep food on the table for those I love.
I strive to be a friend, and an encourager, and a giver.
Many days I fail. So, why do I keep going?
God gives me a reminder every day. He gives me a reminder to keep going, to keep trying, to keep moving forward even when I feel like giving up.
It’s her. That 3 year old little girl, bright eyed, glowing smile. I keep going because I watch her.
I watch her as she puts on her “makeup” and fixes her hair “just like mommy”, and I tell her how beautiful she already is, without fixing anything.
I watch her as she plays throughout her day. She cooks dinner in her kitchen and she sweeps and vacuums with her toys in her play area. She takes care of babies. She kisses their booboos and she feeds them. She pats there back and tells them “it’s ok sweetheart, mommy loves you.”
She gets out her books and takes time to have “Bible study”. She insists we pray before every meal.
I listen as she talks. She already talks about her future. She wants to get married and be a mom and have a “wedding ring” of course :).AND, some days she wants to be a doctor, or a firefighter, or superman; she can never quite make up her mind.
I watch her and I KNOW without a shadow of a doubt that I have to keep going. I have to keep being better, and doing better, and loving better, because she wants to be me.
AND, so, I sit before my Heavenly Father and I thank Him for her. I thank Him for the roles He has given me, even when they seem overwhelming. And, I ask Him to keep making me.
Proverbs 31:26-28 She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue. She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness. Her children arise and call her blessed…