“I JUST cleaned this room!” I exclaimed as I walked in the door.
“AND this one too… UGHH…”
Frustrated, annoyed, irritated- these are all some good words you could use to describe my emotions in that moment.
I had spent a good portion of my afternoon washing dishes and wiping counters, picking up toys and sweeping up cheerios, putting away neatly folded stacks of clothing and making beds.
It had only been a couple of hours since I had completed my task, yet as I entered the door it looked like nothing had been cleaned, tidied, or accomplished that day.
The toy box had once again been emptied. The dishes had already started piling up. AND my 3 year old had made a point to empty out her dresser droor of neatly folded clothes onto the floor, where it was now just a pile of NOT so neatly folded clothes.
I SO wanted to spew the frustration on my husband, on my kids. I SO wanted to blame someone, to really let them have it. AND there have been days that I have done exactly that. But, on this particular day, I couldn’t help but think about the lesson God was teaching me.
You see earlier that morning I had spent some time studying God’s Word. I was doing a Bible study about controlling my emotions, funny, I know. In a way I had just let God clean out my heart and mind to prepare me to be a better mom and wife- one who doesn’t lose it on her family.
Yet, here I was. The words were welling up within me. The rage was beginning to appear on my face. They deserved an ear full, right?
Just as I had cleaned my house just hours earlier, only for it to be a mess again. I had also, hours earlier allowed God to purify my heart, only to be back here in this place that was not feeling so clean.
I realized then that our minds and hearts are much like our houses. We cannot clean them once and move on with life. We cannot allow God to change us and grow us and then walk away. It is CONSTANT.
Just as I must daily take time to invest in my home if I want it to be clean, I must daily spend time renewing my heart and mind. If not, dust will begin to gather, trash will pile up, and things that were never intended to be there suddenly are.
I had to pause and once again allow God to work in my heart and mind.
Friend, might you do the same today?
I encourage you to take the time today to set before your heavenly Father, hear His word, and let Him clean up the mess that has occurred. AND, do it again tomorrow, and the next day, and the day after that.
You won’t regret it.
Psalm 139:23-24 “Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.”