It’s those questions you get deep in your gut. The ones about the way you live, the actions you take, the very inner being of who you are or who you strive to be.
They can be discouraging at the least. Sometimes they can make you just want to throw in the towel.
I recently had these gut wrenching questions churning inside of me about how I do life.
You see, as a follower of Christ, a mom, a wife, a friend, I try to live very intentionally. I strive daily to live a certain way. To show Christ’s love to the world through my words, my actions, my heart.
I try to make a daily choice to be positive, to live with joy, to speak hope, to give generously, to go out of my way to love others.
Many times I fail. But, don’t we all?
I questioned if the way I live really matters. Does it make a difference to anyone else? I don’t necessarily see the results- so does what I do, does who I am, does it even matter?
Maybe you have asked the same question. Maybe you haven’t seen a difference made, although you strive to be a difference maker. Maybe you haven’t seen a life changed, although you choose to live a changed life. Maybe you haven’t seen the spark ignite in the life of another, although you strive to pass on the light.
Maybe you feel a little discouraged.
So, let me just encourage you today. Even when you don’t see it, when you don’t understand it, who you are, the way that you live, it does make a difference. You may never know it.
I never knew.
And then, right in the midst of my questioning,God gave me a good reminder. A reminder that who I am does matter.
My neighbor and good friend, Cindy, has been in my life for about the last 5 years. We have both gone through different phases of life. I have watched her endure hardships, change jobs, & raise her kids. She has watched me as I became a wife, and a mom, and built a home.
Cindy has made some changes in her life since I first met her. Intentional changes. Changes that cause hope, and joy, and love to overflow from her life. She has always been a good person, a great friend. BUT there is something different, something beautiful that has happened within her.
And, in the midst of a quick text conversation she said something that totally caught me off guard. Something that I didn’t know, didn’t realize.
“…your life of love lead a lost neighbor to cry out to Jesus because she wanted to have your beauty and strength!”….
I read the words, and then I cried.
Wait, me?! You saw something in me?
God’s sweet and gentle reminder that the intentional choices I make daily DO matter.
I had never connected the dots before. I was so happy for her and the changes that were occurring, but I never thought I had played a role, even a small part. I never realized that in some small way, my life affected hers.
AND, if it weren’t for that conversation that day, I would have never realized.
Maybe for you, it’s not a neighbor. Maybe it’s a co-worker, or a friend, or a spouse, or that person that you see every morning at the coffee shop.
AND, maybe you will never have the conversation that helps you understand that the life you live DOES matter. Maybe you won’t get to watch the changes unfold. Maybe you’ll never get to see the hope overflow.
BUT, today, my friend, the life you live matters. The joy you spread matters. The way you love others, it matters. Don’t be discouraged. Keep spreading the love of Christ everywhere you go. You ARE changing lives, just by who you choose to be today!
Galatians 5:22-23 “But the fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, and self control…”
Mark 16:5 “And he said, ‘Go into all the world and proclaim the gospel to the whole creation.’”